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Monday, April 7, 2008

Old Age is a Gift.

(I just got this in an e-mail and I love it!)

Old Age, I decided, is a gift
> >
> > I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I
> >have always wanted to be. Oh, not my body! I sometime despair
> >over my body, the wrinkles, the baggy eyes, and the sagging butt.
> >And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my
> >mirror (who looks like my mother!), but I don't agonise over those
> >things for long.
> >
> > I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my
> >loving family for less grey hair or a flatter belly. As I've
> >aged, I've become more kind to myself, and less critical of
> >myself. I've become my own friend.
> >
> > I don' t chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not
> >making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I
> >didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled
> >to a treat, to be messy, to be extravagant.
> >
> >
> > I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon;
> >before they understood the great freedom that comes with ageing.
> >
> > Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer
> >until 4 AM and sleep until noon?
> >
> > I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60&70's,
> >and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love .. I
> >will.
> >
> > I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a
> >bulging body, and will dive into the waves with abandon if I
> >choose to, despite the pitying glances from the jet set
> > They, too, will get old.
> >
> > I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is
> >just as well forgotten. And I eventually remember the important
> >things.
> >
> > Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your
> >heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a child
> >suffers, or even when some body's beloved pet gets hit by a
> >car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and
> >understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine
> >and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.
> >
> > I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning
> >gray, and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into
> >deep grooves on my face. So many have never l aughed, and so many
> >have died before their hair could turn silver
> >
> > As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less
> >about what other people think. I don't question myself
> >anymore. I've even earned the right to be wrong.
> >
> > So, I like being old. It has set me free. I like the person I
> >have become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am
> >still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have
> >been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert
> >every single day. (If I feel like it)

4 comments:

  1. Hi Essy: Did you write that post about 'old age'? Do you consider 40 something 'old'? WOW!! Maybe I should start considering myself 'old' at 61??? I've spent the past 20 some years learning how to avoid the painful symptoms which made me feel 'old' during my early 50s. So, even though I have physically painful days which makes me wonder how long I will live, I feel youthful and vibrant on the days I feel better.

    BTW the last treatment (caprylic acid) for enterobacter cloacae seems to be working well ... except I also increased how much HCl I take with every meal. That also alleviates gastrointestinal symptoms. Because a mainstream doctor's misdiagnosed 'treatment' (acid blockers) for misdiagnosed 'gastritis' (when I really had CD), suppressed my stomach's normal acid producing ability, I may have to take HCl for awhile to completely recover. However, I'm doing better every day. THANKS SO MUCH for all your prayers!!!
    SUE

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  2. OOOPPS!! I just reread the post and realized you received that in an email. SIGH Oh well ... I feel 'old' when I have painful symptoms, but I really don't consider myself 'old' yet. However I DO eat dessert every day ... sometimes 2x a day. (We made a great fudgy chocolate nondairy cashew based ice cream last night. YUM!)

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  3. LOL...Sue. No, even though I'm seeing glimpses of the gray hair now that I'm no longer coloring over it...I wouldn't yet consider it 'silver'. This is just something that I aspire to be when I grow up...lol.

    Essy

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  4. "Growing older is mandantory. Growing up is optional." (Seen on a few teeshirts and bumper stickers.) LOL I know I will accumulate chronological years, but I can stay young at heart, because I refuse to 'grow up' and 'act like an adult' (whoever they are). LOL

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