Chapter 5 Part 1 - True Confessions...

God Is Doing a New Thing: Chapter 5 Part 1 - True Confessions About Being "Reconciled" To My Body: "I have been putting off facing into this chapter, I think. I read the pages up to the place where the Mirror, Mirror Exercise begins. Funny how I did that...It is dated 4 days ago...haven't touched the book since."

Wow...this is EXACTLY where I've beenwith that too. Funny thing is how God has pushed me into it... my body has been poked and examined from every angle...by what seems like everyone that comes near me...lol. I was in the ER on Sunday suffering with anxiety...and had to go through a series of tests and x-rays and so forth. Today I go back to my own doctor for a follow-up. So this whole 'body' thing is getting a lot of focus. More then I'd like it to, really.

Here's one exercise that I did do when I was in the middle of an anxiety attack...I'd lie back (prefferably in a nice warm tub)...tense my body and then let it relax. I would then start at my toes and work my way up. Just drawing my focus to that particular area and give God thanks and praise, for how well it is designed and how healthy it is. Even the areas that I've had issues with in the past...specifically my tummy area and reproductive organs. I came to a place of forgiveness and even more then that...gratitude. Had everything worked the way it was supposed it, I most likely wouldn't have my two precious children in my life...who came to me through adoption. I think that I'm finally ok with my size and shape also...actually it is not so bad for a woman of my age. Ofcoure there could be some improvements on my general health...I especially need to add more recreation into my to-do list...but other then that, I'm very grateful. There are so many far worse off then I am.

So my friends...it is time to move forward...